Music first or incapacity first? That is the query posed by Canadian disabled musicologist Stefan Sunandan Honisch initially of his article of the identical identify, in the end asking: “What’s the distinction between being a disabled musician and an ready musician who occurs to be disabled?”
For me, this query and its reply are ever evolving. As a disabled musician, and particularly a composer and performer writing music for my physicality and embodiment, the change between music and incapacity regularly fluctuates. Typically my inventive choices are pushed by a musical route and typically by a incapacity route. The last word problem, nevertheless, is sufficiently representing these instructions as a way to advocate for incapacity in musical contexts, the place it’s usually feared, shunned and stigmatized.
Rising up musically, it was clear that almost all musical devices are made for particular skills. In contrast to dance and visible artwork, the place consideration of the physique has grown to be thought of freed from bodily norms and restrictions, music has persistently been tied to devices with particular bodily expectations of the performer, such because the widespread violin, piano, and even vocal efficiency. . This was evident in my musical growth. I used to be concerned in a automobile accident on the age of seven that almost amputated my left hand. Earlier than the accident I performed violin, and following the accident performed cello and trumpet by means of adaptive means (resembling enjoying cello backward, bowing with my left hand by way of a splint). Nonetheless, when making an attempt to play these devices, even by means of adaptive strategies, I used to be in battle with the devices’ bodily expectations of my physique, particularly my left hand, resembling utilizing the cello’s fingerboard or correctly supporting the trumpet’s weight. These expectations had been one thing I used to be by no means going to adapt to, and requirements that had been by no means going to adapt to me. On the time, this unconsciously motivated me to discover music composition extra, by means of which I didn’t have to think about what my left hand might or couldn’t do. Thus on the time, the reply to the “incapacity first or music first” query was “music first”. I tried to adapt bodily to the music somewhat than having the music and musical means and strategies conform to my physicality.
After I began undergraduate research, the coed affairs workplace needed to inform the music school of my impaired left hand due to the potential lodging wanted. I used to be horrified by the prospect of the composition school discovering out about me due to my incapacity somewhat than my music. As an eighteen 12 months outdated, I had by no means been labeled as disabled in earlier education, and felt an actual reckoning level with the then pressured label of incapacity, as one thing forcing me to decide on the “incapacity first” route somewhat than consciously and deliberately selecting it. .
As my apply developed, I spotted that my disabled expertise is an inherent method I work together with the world and a vital channel to producing work. A lot of this considering has been developed by the invention of incapacity research and the wealthy world of incapacity arts, the place artists throughout disciplines domesticate new work grounded within the expertise of incapacity. This has inspired me to embrace and acknowledge my incapacity as a essential supply of creativity. Slightly than conform my physicality to the music, I domesticate the music from my physicality.
Thus for me, the reply has turned to “incapacity first”. I might somewhat the world change into extra conscious of incapacity and its ramifications by means of my work. In my view, incapacity concerns have essentially the most wide-ranging penalties, with incapacity being the biggest but maybe least acknowledged minority (26% in accordance with 2020 CDC report, 15% worldwide in WHO/World Financial institution 2011 Report on Incapacity). Moreover, disabled people are sometimes the least employed, with the employment charge for disabled people almost 40% lower than non-disabled people (2021 report by US Division of Labor). I imagine these figures are sometimes not identified among the many public, particularly as incapacity is an identification that’s usually stigmatized and feared.
Due to this fact, for me the “incapacity first” reply has change into most important. I search to discover the inventive and musical ramifications of this, regularly investigating incapacity as a inventive supply that every one can study from and interact with.
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